Saturday, June 04, 2005

this is an unusual saturday night. for the past few weeks i haven't stay put in one place. now im here, at home, typing away in front of the computer. i haven't had much time to slow down and think for the past few weeks. this is a welcome change.

so now im pondering, and i have just realized that i have missed out on so many things because just when things get tough, i find myself quitting. quitting on a sport, on my studies.. and hai.. on love.

i'm marking sophomore year as the dawn of a new me. no more quitting.

since i quit on TNT before i even got in, i managed to get myself into LOG instead. collecting waste, arranging monoblock chairs, assisting lost freshmen. that's my job. oh well, its tough, but somebody's got to do it. that's how im punishing myself for quitting TNT.

i've made a change in the way i chose my classes too. i've decided not to let the assigned prof get in the way of choosing a class. so what if i get the prof from hell? i dont think i'll enjoy an A if i got it because i took the easy way out.

and then there's love...

although i pride myself in being decisive, this is one thing i, as with most people, am not sure of.

who loves feeling uncertain? the easiest way out of uncertainty is quitting. but im not doing that now.

love is like dancing a tango. as they say, it takes two. it'll take both parties to make it work. i'm still a willing party, bruised heart and all.

i'm not sure of what i'm doing, but i'll put the feelings of fear and distrust aside. if there's one thing i'm sure of, it's that God is leading me to this path. Basta ikaw Lord, plano mo to eh.

let's give this dance another chance.

and God, if he ever lets me down again, i'll seek comfort in You, and go back to square one.

pixie
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