Sunday, January 02, 2005

HAAAPPPYYY NEEEWW YEAAARR!!!

i had a heart-to-heart talk with my uncle today. nobody reads me better than he does because apart from being a close relative, he's also a psychologist. he posed a lot of questions to me, and gave me a lot of good advice... and i can't help but think about them now.

one of the things that he said that hit me hardest was this: there's no one else who can save your ass but yourself. stop pleasing others at your expense.

maybe i ought learn how to love myself more this year, because i have been sacrificing the things that i want just to make others happy. as Carrie said in the finale of Sex and the City (which is a must watch), the most important relationship is the one you have with yourself.

as for Uncle John's damn question: "Ano, no boyfriend yet?... When will you fall in love?"

i don't know. all i know, is that just like Carrie, i am looking for, (and i quote) ridiculous, committed, can't-live-without-each-other kind of love.

And no, I am no longer apologetic for it. I no longer think of myself as pathetic for praying for that every night. Let me be specific. I want jump-over-the-moon,catch-the-stars-in-my-hands,swim-to-the-Pacific-and-back,forget-my-name kind of love.

Maybe it's not the right time for that yet... but I'll wait because it's worth it. =)

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Scared to fall in love
Afraid to love so fast
Coz everytime i fall in love
It seems to never last...

- Everytime
Janet Jackson




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